The man in the rainbow mask — I’m the man in the rainbow mask, not in a sexy, mysterious, non-binary bandit kind of way…more in a finally embracing all the queerness rather intensely during a Pandemic kind of way. This is me unfiltered. I’m a fun-sized, nerdy guy on my way to becoming some kind of hobbit requiring six meals a…

I hope I get it back eventually — Shortly before COVID-19 hit, SpanishRed recommended that I watch an absolutely horrific romantic movie called Perfect Sense. It was artistic, terrifying, and eerily prophetic of some of what we would soon experience. This movie followed an epidemiologist and her lover, a masterful cook, through a series of plagues that robbed…

Thank you for listening — “I probably just said the wrong thing to you, you know, with you being trans and all. I hope you’ll show me some grace. It’s my birthday and I’ve had a few mimosas,” she laughed uncomfortably. I was aware of nothing inappropriate that she’d said in our 5-minute interaction. I…

Mother of Pleasure, never forget we’re still here. — A ghost texted me around midnight, From the other side of the rainbow, Where Dorothy’s house lies in ruins, And us Bad Witches can’t see the kids, ’Cause we’ve escaped the Underworld, With butterfly wings & boxes of Beauty, Leaving behind some mixed-up myths, A mess to be sorted by the Choir’s review…

I don’t want to mourn; anger feels more productive — I got a call from the Health Department on Friday morning informing me that I was quarantined until Friday evening. This was a weird effect of finding out late that I had COVID-19. I felt better, so I went to work on Saturday morning, wearing my mask as recommended. During…

Why guys like me have preventable health disparities and what you can do about it — Getting the medical care that I need in Colorado is showing me just how transphobic the medical system in North Carolina was. I could skip to the happy ending, but that wouldn’t be fair to all of the trans people I left behind. It might also leave you unaware that…

Hearing her voice in my memory makes me cringe — “When I was a child, I was taught that if a white person shakes your hand, it will change your life forever.” Hearing her voice in my memory makes me cringe because I know how I responded and wish I could go back in time to change it somehow. I…

I’m the only one who can define my own masculinity — Is my personal obligation as a non-binary trans masculine dude to confuse y’all with my gender expression? Possibly. In Kitty Whitemore’s hilarious essay, “Women’s Sports: Just the Beginning of a Transgender Assault on Women (Satire)”, she describes enbies (non-binary people) as part of the transgender “psy-ops divisions”: These brave souls…

A lot of weird shit has happened — I’ll be honest. A lot of weird shit has happened since I started my new job canvassing. One of the strangest moments was when a man on the street told me he couldn’t be sure how he felt about human rights. All that he knew was that he was too…